I don't know how to handle this anymore.. everything is turning backwards!!

living like this is so  bad !!

even my only friend that was there for me all the time until I come here is not there anymore :''(

I miss everything!! even every little shit I hated when I was back there, even that..

I don't know what to do!! I want to stay here in pt but living like this...

what should I do..?!?!?!

this ain't living ..

I can't leave like this! it's like living with strangers, you never know how they'll act! they can be happy and suddenly they're shouting with each other.

you ask somuething but it looks like you shouldn't have asked anything but you can't say that because it's like throwing stones!! you better be quite!!!

they're always saying that I don't speak but I defenetly can't tell my opinion or what I'm thinking because you never know!! they may start screaming without reason and I just stay speechless!!!

I just keep quiet, no one needs to know what I think about anything !!!