keeping the blog / homesick

it's been so long since I don't write! but as this was the way I found to talk about everything when I was sad and felt that I had no one to talk to, I decided to keep the blog =) after the exams though I'll have more time to write

sooo news of the day!! -.-
I miss my parents and friends sooo much :'( I can't wait until July 17th to go there, if it wasn't the exams and everything I'd be there by now but what can I do?! nothing else than wait! so I'm gonna be counting the days :b .. not to say that I'm also tired of some things here (not that I'm complaining but there are still things here  bothering me!) they're still being too harsh on me but sometimes I even think if I was the one expecting too much of them which makes me feel kinda disappointed now.. I gotta say that "cuting the pain away" at some point can be addictive but I don't really see what's good about that because besides wasting my time on something that may kill me or at least leave scars, why would I risk my life for that??!

(well I'll have to continue this other day because I don't have time now and I just came to see if I should keep it or not)

P.S.: sorry if some phrase doesn't make sense or if there's something misspelled in the text, english is not my main language.

it's funny how things can change in a few months! I mean it's been 4 or 5 months and I passed from staying always alone at school to finaly making good friends and that's awesome because I think that if I had more of that loneliness time I would get to my "breaking point"! seeing me saying that I can finaly make friends now maybe makes people think I'm a totally weirdoo that never had friends! the thing is I actually had lots back in where I lived but it's hard for me to talk to strangers so I was having difficulties but that doesn't matter now that I finaly went through it! I think I'm finaly getting along now :)

maybe I'm being mean but after everything that she does there's no going back now!!

the thing is, I'm confused because I feel good for leting go of what I think but on the other hand I feel bad for saying that kind of things and making people feel bad even if they do the same to me ..

I keep trying to ignore everything and make things get better but it's sooo hard!!

still not giving up (at least for now)

sooo I went to see Jason Mraz !!
and it was awesome!!

before he appeared I was kinda thinking I would regret it but when it started I didn't want it to finish so soon xP

it was a great time spent singing and shouting for him. <3

hope to see him again xDD

".. sometimes it may seem dark
But the absence of the light is a necessary part .."Love is a four letter word <3 Jason Mraz

it must be all against me now!!
I don't know how but, suddenly I couldn't open my blog!!
I was going to write about other thing but with all this, trying to open then opening something else!! I don't even remember ://
maybe I should just stop with this "blog thing" !!!

AAAHH I hate it!!

I hate it when someone ask me something thn just go nd ask the same thing to other person it's like telling me that I 'm lying!!
if you don't believe me, just don't ask!! don't make me waste my time ... I'm counting how long I can handle this!!

I don't know how to handle this anymore.. everything is turning backwards!!

living like this is so  bad !!

even my only friend that was there for me all the time until I come here is not there anymore :''(

I miss everything!! even every little shit I hated when I was back there, even that..

I don't know what to do!! I want to stay here in pt but living like this...

what should I do..?!?!?!